♥* ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY *♥

22 APRIL2010 :)
Happy one year anniversary with hubby :D
He prepare a nice meal for me.

*2 EGGS

*PIECES POTATOES*HUBBY IS SLICING THE POTATOES :)

*COOKING

*MY CHEF POSE 1 :D*POSE 2 :)*POSE 3 :P*THADA~YUMMY

*WOOT WOOT~DONE
*WE FINISHED IT :D YUMYUM~
*HUBBY :D

Thanks for hubby made me a delicious meal :)
Hope that we will be with each other forever.
And you can make more delicious meals for me in every anniversary :P
I LOVE YOU!
NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU~ *singing* :P

♥* ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY

♥* HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVLY HUBBY *♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!Making birthday wishes :)BLOW!!!Evil cut the birthday cake XDLOL~Yummy!!! :D

31st MARCH 2010.
It's my lovely hubby's 22 yeas old birthday. :)
I promised him that i will back to SDK from KK today.
Cause wanna celebrate his birthday together :D
He came over my house.
And i'm really excited to see him again *hug*

My dad bought a cake for him.
But he's too shy to cut the cake infront of my family XD
So there's just me and him in the process of his birthday lol~

BTW.
I wish that hubby can happy always.
Dreams come true.
Always stay healthy.
Can get anything he want :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY HUBBY :)

♥* STRESS & BLISSFUL *♥

AH!
STRESS STRESS STRESS~
EXAM.CONVO.
All coming soon ==
It made me breathless to be honest.
Can i handle these all things?
I will try my best on it.
ps:The folio not yet done lagi XD

The other side.
After graduate have to find a job.
Well.
My final decision is back my hometown SANDAKAN :o
All my friends not support that i back to my hometown.
Cause they think i will ruin my future.
And they think i going back there is just because of HIM.
But to be honest.
If i said not because of him then i'm a liar.
But not all because of him.
I do think KK is not a place belongs to me to live with.
I'm the person more prefer easy life.
Even i know my salary will be just a lil bit.
Can't even compare to KK or KL.
But i will try my best to make my salary to be more and more again.
Money is really important for life.
But without HAPPY.MONEY is nothing.
So i hope all my friends and family will really support me.
Hope i can really find a great job.
GOD BLESS =]

26th March
Daddy will coming KK for his body check.
I hope he will be alright.
Don't want that he live in the pain again :(
Hope daddy will get well soon.
And mommy too.
Always stay healthy.
GOD BLESS TOO. *pray*

Today is 22th March 2010.
It's our 11 months anniversary =]
Last night is really a happy night for me.
Finally he told me what's really in his heart.
He never being that sweet to me.
But i can feel that he's trustable with all the words he said.
He's a bit shy but i kinda like :D
I feel guilty about in the pass i don't really understand how he is.
Always think that he doesnt love me and never pay out anything for our relationship.
So made all my friends misunderstood him :(
But he's not at all.
He's just a person don't want to show his personality and what he think.
So i hope all my friends can changed their mind about him.
No worries about us.
He will be the future life partner for me and forever :)
And i'm waiting his white gold ring for our engagement :P
For who reading my page now.
I hope you can feel how excited am i and give us a best wishes :) Thanks.

April will going back to SDK.
Kinda excited to meet him and KaKa and my family :D
Can't wait~

BTW.
HOPE ALL THE THINGS WILL GOING TO BE GOOD.
GOD BLESS.

♥* 坚持 *♥

大哭了一场。
现在清醒了许多。
谢谢你们的安慰。
我也很感激。
原谅我的闹情绪。
把你们给吓坏了。
我也惊讶为何我会如此失去控制的大哭。
也许已压仰了很久。
但从未如此释放过。
眼泪和鼻涕化为一团的感觉也真的很不好受。

其实。
他并没有旁人所看的那么不好。
或许你会觉得这是我的借口。
但真的。
他改变了很多。
对我的关心。
对我的体贴。
对我的呵护。
只有我能感觉到。
这些是无法用任何东西来衡量的。
相信我吗？

他。
是个怎样的人。
或许可以大胆的说。
我是最了解他的一个人。
我也大胆的承认。
我是最爱他的一个人。

他。
并没有给过我什么。
并没有实现过什么承诺。
但和他在一起的时光胜过所有。

他。
不成熟。
不积极。
不上进。
但他的将来是无法预测的。

也曾想过。
和他会有未来吗？
我不能回答。
我真的有所保留。
我不知道未来的我们会变成怎样。

如今。
他给我的爱。
渐渐消失。
我也无法挽回什么。
但我告诉自己。
我得撑下去。
就算给自己一个交代。
让我和我的至爱度过我第一次的纪念日。

我。
不在乎他给的爱有多少。
至少我问心无愧。

上天。
让我们遇见。
这就是缘分。
也有它的道理。
勇于接受。
也许某一天你会慢慢明白。
也或许有一天。
你得到的会比付出的多。

家人。
对我来说是第一位。
永远不变。
我叛逆。
我浪费。
对不起。
原谅我的认真和无知。
但我懂得孝顺。
不管未来怎样。
我真的会学着抬起整头家。
不会再让家人担心。
我长大了。
我爱你们。

人说爱情是盲目的。
说的一点也没错。
但我还能想。
还能思考。
我做的一切。
我都懂。
只不过我从未想要放弃。
也从未学习过放弃。
但若时间到了。
放弃将会是我最终的选择。

我说写的都不是我的借口。
是我内心的话。
只有爱过的人会明白吧。
又或许我只不过是个天真的人。

坚持。
我相信。
能到最后。

♥* WAITING & WISHING *♥

付出的太多了。

想收回已太迟。

伤痕累累；却觉得是值得。

想放手；却又不舍得。

想放弃；却又不甘心。

累了。真的累了。

但付出的爱；让我无法自拔。

认命。

或许有那么一天，得到的会比付出的多。

也只能盼望有这么一天的到来。

THINGS I PAID OUT ARE TOO MUCH TO COUNT.
IT'S TOO LATE TO WANNA GET IT BACK.
HURT A LOT.
BUT THINK IT'S ALL ARE WORTH.
WANNA LET GO.
BUT DON'T WANT TO.
WANNA GIVE UP.
BUT NOT ABLE TO DO IT.
FEELING TIRED.
REALLY TIRED.
BUT THE LOVE I PAID OUT.
MADE ME CAN'T TURN BACK.
I ACCEPT.
MAYBE THERE'S SOMEDAY.
THE THINGS I GET BACK WILL BE MORE THAN I PAID OUT NOW.
HOPE THAT SOMEDAY WILL COMEING VERY SOON.

♥* 2010 *♥

It's like an ages i never on to my blog and update.
There's been a lot of things happened at the passed year.
Sad.Happy.Surprised.Excited.Blissful.
And many many.
To be honest.
I don't really like and enjoyed the days in last year 2009.
Cause there's a lot of unlucky things happened to this world.
And it makes people keep believe that 2012 will really be the end of this whole world including me.
My life was really be in really sucks though.
2009 i experienced depressed.sad.frustrated.broken heart.mad and and and...........
I never want to meet that kinds of problems again.
Just like what i said.
I'm not that strong but i'm trying not to be weak.
All right.
2009 is over.
I have to be mature again.

Woohoo.
2010 a brand new year :)
Hope that something good will happen to me^^

Let's talk about my course that i studying now.
SNIPS ACADEMY.
I stayed at this collegue like almost a year.
So it's almost the time i graduate.
Between the time stay at collegue.
For sure learn a lot of things.
Attended shows to experienced how to handle live model in the live show.
And in this coming month.March or April.
Maybe there will be a hair show for us that who will graduate.
I'm excited and for sure really worrying and afraid XD
Cause still doubt about my skills and my creative mind^^
But i will do my best in it :)
So after graduated.
There's a lot of challenged waiting for me ==
I'm not a student again and have to handle all the things by my own......
Feels horibble :'(
But still have to face it.
GOD BLESE ME :D



The other side.
About my relationship.
Well.
I can said that we engaged ^^
Hard to explain the things happened last year.
And don't wanna talk about it again.
But this brand new year just like a fresh new start of us.
The love from each other is growing to more and more.
He's learning to show me his love.
Always holding my hands.hugging me.kissing me.And protecting me.
Never want to let go.
I love this boy so much until there's no any words can describe about it.
I just can say i wanna be with him forever nomatter what.
Btw.We wont know what will happen in the future.
But nomatter what.My heart is still belongs to him forever.
Just like the words on our pair of ring necklace 'FOREVER WITH YOU'.
I LOVE YOU.HUBBY :)

Dong dong chiang.Dong dong chiang.
WOW.
Chinese new year is coming very soon.
So wish all around the world will be very peaceful.blissful.happy.lucky.healthy and a lot of good things will happen :D
And the worst things wont happen again.
GOGOGO.

♥*FOREVER WITH YOU*♥

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