♥* STRESS & BLISSFUL *♥

AH!
STRESS STRESS STRESS~
EXAM.CONVO.
All coming soon ==
It made me breathless to be honest.
Can i handle these all things?
I will try my best on it.
ps:The folio not yet done lagi XD

The other side.
After graduate have to find a job.
Well.
My final decision is back my hometown SANDAKAN :o
All my friends not support that i back to my hometown.
Cause they think i will ruin my future.
And they think i going back there is just because of HIM.
But to be honest.
If i said not because of him then i'm a liar.
But not all because of him.
I do think KK is not a place belongs to me to live with.
I'm the person more prefer easy life.
Even i know my salary will be just a lil bit.
Can't even compare to KK or KL.
But i will try my best to make my salary to be more and more again.
Money is really important for life.
But without HAPPY.MONEY is nothing.
So i hope all my friends and family will really support me.
Hope i can really find a great job.
GOD BLESS =]

26th March
Daddy will coming KK for his body check.
I hope he will be alright.
Don't want that he live in the pain again :(
Hope daddy will get well soon.
And mommy too.
Always stay healthy.
GOD BLESS TOO. *pray*

Today is 22th March 2010.
It's our 11 months anniversary =]
Last night is really a happy night for me.
Finally he told me what's really in his heart.
He never being that sweet to me.
But i can feel that he's trustable with all the words he said.
He's a bit shy but i kinda like :D
I feel guilty about in the pass i don't really understand how he is.
Always think that he doesnt love me and never pay out anything for our relationship.
So made all my friends misunderstood him :(
But he's not at all.
He's just a person don't want to show his personality and what he think.
So i hope all my friends can changed their mind about him.
No worries about us.
He will be the future life partner for me and forever :)
And i'm waiting his white gold ring for our engagement :P
For who reading my page now.
I hope you can feel how excited am i and give us a best wishes :) Thanks.

April will going back to SDK.
Kinda excited to meet him and KaKa and my family :D
Can't wait~

BTW.
HOPE ALL THE THINGS WILL GOING TO BE GOOD.
GOD BLESS.

♥* 坚持 *♥

大哭了一场。
现在清醒了许多。
谢谢你们的安慰。
我也很感激。
原谅我的闹情绪。
把你们给吓坏了。
我也惊讶为何我会如此失去控制的大哭。
也许已压仰了很久。
但从未如此释放过。
眼泪和鼻涕化为一团的感觉也真的很不好受。

其实。
他并没有旁人所看的那么不好。
或许你会觉得这是我的借口。
但真的。
他改变了很多。
对我的关心。
对我的体贴。
对我的呵护。
只有我能感觉到。
这些是无法用任何东西来衡量的。
相信我吗？

他。
是个怎样的人。
或许可以大胆的说。
我是最了解他的一个人。
我也大胆的承认。
我是最爱他的一个人。

他。
并没有给过我什么。
并没有实现过什么承诺。
但和他在一起的时光胜过所有。

他。
不成熟。
不积极。
不上进。
但他的将来是无法预测的。

也曾想过。
和他会有未来吗？
我不能回答。
我真的有所保留。
我不知道未来的我们会变成怎样。

如今。
他给我的爱。
渐渐消失。
我也无法挽回什么。
但我告诉自己。
我得撑下去。
就算给自己一个交代。
让我和我的至爱度过我第一次的纪念日。

我。
不在乎他给的爱有多少。
至少我问心无愧。

上天。
让我们遇见。
这就是缘分。
也有它的道理。
勇于接受。
也许某一天你会慢慢明白。
也或许有一天。
你得到的会比付出的多。

家人。
对我来说是第一位。
永远不变。
我叛逆。
我浪费。
对不起。
原谅我的认真和无知。
但我懂得孝顺。
不管未来怎样。
我真的会学着抬起整头家。
不会再让家人担心。
我长大了。
我爱你们。

人说爱情是盲目的。
说的一点也没错。
但我还能想。
还能思考。
我做的一切。
我都懂。
只不过我从未想要放弃。
也从未学习过放弃。
但若时间到了。
放弃将会是我最终的选择。

我说写的都不是我的借口。
是我内心的话。
只有爱过的人会明白吧。
又或许我只不过是个天真的人。

坚持。
我相信。
能到最后。

♥* WAITING & WISHING *♥

付出的太多了。

想收回已太迟。

伤痕累累；却觉得是值得。

想放手；却又不舍得。

想放弃；却又不甘心。

累了。真的累了。

但付出的爱；让我无法自拔。

认命。

或许有那么一天，得到的会比付出的多。

也只能盼望有这么一天的到来。

THINGS I PAID OUT ARE TOO MUCH TO COUNT.
IT'S TOO LATE TO WANNA GET IT BACK.
HURT A LOT.
BUT THINK IT'S ALL ARE WORTH.
WANNA LET GO.
BUT DON'T WANT TO.
WANNA GIVE UP.
BUT NOT ABLE TO DO IT.
FEELING TIRED.
REALLY TIRED.
BUT THE LOVE I PAID OUT.
MADE ME CAN'T TURN BACK.
I ACCEPT.
MAYBE THERE'S SOMEDAY.
THE THINGS I GET BACK WILL BE MORE THAN I PAID OUT NOW.
HOPE THAT SOMEDAY WILL COMEING VERY SOON.